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So I Finally Saw Avatar - My Review

and it was aiight. lol

If you want a visually stimulating experience, GO SEE AVATAR.

However; if you want quality storyline, engaging dialogue, logical progression - um, go see something else.

I will keep this short because AVATAR is something you have already seen before regardless if you have purchased a ticket.

Imagine the storyline of Apocalypto, with the over-the-top machinery of Transformers, with the science fiction of the Matrix, with the white-savior complex of Dances with Wolves, with the graphics of Shrek 3-D and you have the jumble-lya that is AVATAR.

The love story is out of any movie you have ever seen!

My final rating - eh *shrugs shoulders*

Am I off base here?

My How Time Flys When Your Single

I will NOT disclose my age but as a point of reference I saw Waiting To Exhale in high school. I remember thinking to myself, "God don't let me end up like these women - 30, single and desperate."

Fast forward to now, I am watching Let's Talk About Pep, I am thinking, "God' don't let me end up like these women - late 30s, single, and desperate." lol

Where has the time gone? Who told me that I had to reach my goals before finding love? Where did I learn to be so afraid to take a chance?

Ugh. Have I become one of THOSE women?

NOT YET.

I tell you if one more birthday passes in singledom, I am joining a convent.

It would be just my luck to take my vow of celibacy and then meet the man of my dreams while helping orphans in Haiti.

*sidenote* I am not a nun but I do feel I have taken a vow of celibacy. lol

Remember I wrote about making the wrong choice between two guys and I made the wrong choice. Well, the guy I did not choose has resurfaced. I am stuck wondering is this a sign or wishful thinking?

*sidenote #2* I am falling behind on my resolution to get out more. I did attend a networking event last week but that's not the same as being social. IMO

Proclamation: This is the year I fall in love!

Getting Through Valentine's Day

I have never been a sad-faced depressed gal around V-Day but this one was bit difficult. I got up early to catch the morning service. I got in my car even drove around the block but the fog was so heavy I could barely see in front of me. So, I grab breakfast and headed home.

Took a nap and tried again at eleven o'clock. I sat in service without really feeling I was there. Maybe I should have gone to The Potter's House.

Anyway, I think I am still reeling from news that my friend from high school died. This is the same friend who was helping me with my book. Well, she took her own life. I found this out via a direct message on Facebook. This is the same friend who I reconnected with maybe a year and a half-ago. According to her sister, whom the message came from, she was battling depression.

It's weird because right around the time she must have done this. I spoked to her on the phone and she sounded distant, really distant. I just told her that I was checking in on her and hoped she was okay. She said, thanks for checking in on me. That was really it.

I did not know who to tell because my mom was still getting over the loss of her two friends from last year. I did not want to keep being the bearer of bad news.

I, finally told my mom. Who just said, "Baby, I know how you feel." She also told me that it is good to talk to people and not carry around things inside.

Initially, I was hurt, then confused and then slightly angry at her and myself. Why did I not pick up on something deeper when I spoke to her? Then I felt the Lord give me peace. I don't know how to explain it. It's odd when we fight for life and someone else gives up. I am not judging her, just sorry it happened.

I feel better writing about it - freer.

I am grateful that my family is alive and safe. I am grateful for the friends I do have. I am grateful for the knowledge of God through Christ. It has helped me in many difficult times, such as now.

Happy Valentine's Day!

 

 

From my heart to yours :)

Note to Old Married Men. . .

. . .don't nobody want you like that! LOL

There is a guy who is waay to flirty . . .and old. . .and short. . .and married. Did I mention he was old? lol

Anywho, there is another dude who is also less older, taller, married. . .and a Christian. I prefer to laugh and talk with old, tall dude because he is RESPECTFUL, never makes sexual references, and is cool. Unlike old, short dude who is ALWAYS making sexual references, complains about his wife and is sooooo immature for his age.

So old, short dude comes at me like, "Leave old, tall dude alone. He is married."

So, I am like, "WTH?"

And old, short dude is like, "I see how you are with him."

So, I'm like, "Well, dude you are TOTALLY clueless." lol

There is nothing LESS attractive than an immature man, EXCEPT, an immature OLD MAN.

I did not want to hurt his feelings but I am sooo NOT attracted to old men. I enjoy their company probably due to some latent daddy issues but. . .

 . . .I can't get jiggy with that!

Now I feel all weird around, old, tall dude. I think too myself, Am I too nice or flirty with him?  I know with guys there is little room between nice and schwing!

I don't know. What do you guys think?

**Side note** The two guys have the same first name. Coincidence?

Fellow Bloggers

Check out Full Complexity. Homegirl has nice post on faith here.

Here's to Keeping Keeping Promises. . .

. . .to myself.

I made a couple of resolutions this year. Those were my main, public goals. To myself, I promised to get out more. More specifically, to go to a social event 2 times a month.

I went to a Jazz cafe for my birthday and a networking dinner for a professional group I belong to. At this dinner, I met a nice young man who had just completed his MBA. I felt confident and cute. I was flirtatious and witty, even if I must say so myself! lol

I don't know where this confidence came from but I am loving it. At the end of the dinner, the guy shook my hand and gave me his card. I gave him mine. He has not called yet but that is beside the point. The point is I got out and was sociable and . . .fearless.

Secondly, I promised the Lord, if he blessed me with a job (and He did) I would volunteer. I wanted to use the talents God has given me to give back.

Well, I have an audition coming up for a group that records reading material for the blind. I really would like to do this. Just to show how God is always working things out, I'll tell this little story.

I get to the reading center, the volunteer coordinator is giving me a tour of the facilities. I see the name of a friend's husband's friend's wife. You follow?

I helped this loose contact a couple of months ago with a clothing swap fundraiser for her playhouse. I had NO idea she was the book coordinator for the reading for the blind facility. She has worked with them for 23 years!!!

Hopefully, this is where God wants me to be.

Also, my goal is to be faithful at the house of God. I think I know what church to go to now.

Where are you on resolutions?

Stay prayerful guys.